there's this boy and he kinda has my heart

i had a awesome day today. why? simple. because brad came over and spent the day with me. we had ice cream and made nachoes the way we do but apparently they taste weird :S haha.
17 again. righto. zac effron? hot? chyeah fo sure.. not.

me and mum are going to a concert in january and i'm so EXCITED. i can't wait - at all. the person we're going to see has a amazing voice :) kinda sad i like the same music as my motherr. even worse i'm listening to it now as i write this.

think. hear. see. feel. taste. touch.

i think...i used to hate the way things were. my years at st joes weren't the fun and games that people seem to talk about. i've grown up sure. but not from the scool. i grew up from going to germany. i couldn't stand how things were when i came back. everyone seemed so fake and my friends who i thought were my friends werent. but hey; i have a new start at a new school next year. i've seen all my old lutheran friends and other friends i've made throughout the years. all in the one place. it's scary talking to new people and making friends, being friends with people. but at the same time its like the thrill of the chase.

i hear... this song playing on my ipod is just amazing. its about a girl who can't bear to live on without her man. its so sad and deep. the girl who sings this is 22 and will make a impact on the world if they would listen and interpret.

i see...the words appear as i write this on my dim computer screen. too bad real-life isn't as simplistic as typing a few words on a document and seeing them appear before you. clear and constant. until you delete them. thats when things change.

i feel... . i'm not sure how i feel. i miss. i'm tired. i wish brad never has to leave. but each time each day he's here he does. and the minute he's gone i miss him.

i taste... dinner. yuck. should clean my teeth right about now.

i touch... the keyboard of this computer. kinda playing around with my ipod headphone's cords while i think. i'm writing weirdly. i apologise. its the mood i'm in again. it seems to happen every now and then. i'm not explaining it.

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a little bit of d&m

i think that anyone who has anyone should love them for all their worth. love their goods and their bads. its who they are, and for that they are loved.

it hurts.

its true. your the point i look forward to the most and when the day ends the point i'll think about & remember the most.

hey you. yeah you. its true. you are more then good enough. don't forget that.

just once?

there will always be someone there for you.

someone who cares for you. regardless of who you are and what you've done.

and, finally. never never never give up. no matter what.

LOL @ Godzilla ;P

he knows what i'm talking about.