Moose.

As Lilly crawls towards me, her tail moving at 100km/hour wagging, she armies her way over my clothes and various obstacles in her path to gather my attention.
It works.
But no, what is this?
Lilly becomes distracted with snuggling up to my moosey.
Good to know she prefers a inanimate object to me. Seeing as I'm pure awesomeness ;) not.



Ohhh shiiiittttt i gotta clean up this messy room :/ Damn room can't keep itself clean.
The Boy-Toy is coming over. Yeah i call him that but not to his face ;) hehe jokes i love you.

Had the coolest time at Miss E. Howe's house. :) If your reading this Iz have a awesome trip, take lots of photos and have fun with the surfers ;D xoxo HAHA I got tomato soup ;) Imma cook what we had last night again omg it was awesomeness.

Bye all.

Everyday

So.

This is how I feel.

I guess I knew it would happen.

Doesn't make it any less painful.

A picture is worth a thousand words.

But then again.

steady feet

**i wrote this on saturday night and my internet was acting up at the time and mum wasn't going alright so i decided not to post it until now**

Saturday:
My great-grandmother died yesterday, a week before her 100th birthday ( i think). Omi. I never really knew her having only seen her a few times in my entire life when i happened to be in her country. A few days ago my grandparents put her into a home because she couldn't look after herself. My mama told me that when Oma (grandmother) when to see her. Her own mother didn't recognise her and had to ask who she was. To her own daughter. She never spoke to me unless it was through my grandparents. My brother and I were disgraces because we didn't live in Germany and we didn't even speak our mother's first language.
Mama was a disgrace as well because she married a Australian man in Omi's eyes. Harsh.Still she's family and I'm going to miss her.
Mama is leaving us for two weeks to go to her funeral and help sort out Omi's things. *cries* My grandma here, Nana wants to sell up her house and leave everyone in Sunraysia. She's going to live in Adelaide if she sells her house. Near one of my aunties whom my cousin said tried to kill her. When she told me she was covered in bruises.Dad wants to buy the house because he doesn't want anyone else to live there but in wanting to that he isn't being fair to the rest of us. He never listens to us. Ever. Its always do this do that. Pure black and white. No in-between. My family is fucked up in so many ways.

On a happier note: its been (on monday) eight months i've been with brad and they have been the best.



Lost til you're found
Swim til you drown
Know that we all fall down
Love til you hate
Jump til you break
Know that we all fall down

We got a call today from mama's uncle (my grandmothers brother) telling her not to bother coming home to Germany for the funeral because he is much too busy to have a funeral in December. She just paid for the tickets.
She was very upset :( I hugged her :(
They cremated her or 'burnt' my Omi today. R.I.P you will be missed.
I found out she was turnng 98 in a week. Not bad innings as mama said. Omi lived through two world wars. Respect.

Stop and Stare. Do you see what I see?

I suppose I'll write another time.

Regards,

there's this boy and he kinda has my heart

i had a awesome day today. why? simple. because brad came over and spent the day with me. we had ice cream and made nachoes the way we do but apparently they taste weird :S haha.
17 again. righto. zac effron? hot? chyeah fo sure.. not.

me and mum are going to a concert in january and i'm so EXCITED. i can't wait - at all. the person we're going to see has a amazing voice :) kinda sad i like the same music as my motherr. even worse i'm listening to it now as i write this.

think. hear. see. feel. taste. touch.

i think...i used to hate the way things were. my years at st joes weren't the fun and games that people seem to talk about. i've grown up sure. but not from the scool. i grew up from going to germany. i couldn't stand how things were when i came back. everyone seemed so fake and my friends who i thought were my friends werent. but hey; i have a new start at a new school next year. i've seen all my old lutheran friends and other friends i've made throughout the years. all in the one place. it's scary talking to new people and making friends, being friends with people. but at the same time its like the thrill of the chase.

i hear... this song playing on my ipod is just amazing. its about a girl who can't bear to live on without her man. its so sad and deep. the girl who sings this is 22 and will make a impact on the world if they would listen and interpret.

i see...the words appear as i write this on my dim computer screen. too bad real-life isn't as simplistic as typing a few words on a document and seeing them appear before you. clear and constant. until you delete them. thats when things change.

i feel... . i'm not sure how i feel. i miss. i'm tired. i wish brad never has to leave. but each time each day he's here he does. and the minute he's gone i miss him.

i taste... dinner. yuck. should clean my teeth right about now.

i touch... the keyboard of this computer. kinda playing around with my ipod headphone's cords while i think. i'm writing weirdly. i apologise. its the mood i'm in again. it seems to happen every now and then. i'm not explaining it.

***

a little bit of d&m

i think that anyone who has anyone should love them for all their worth. love their goods and their bads. its who they are, and for that they are loved.

it hurts.

its true. your the point i look forward to the most and when the day ends the point i'll think about & remember the most.

hey you. yeah you. its true. you are more then good enough. don't forget that.

just once?

there will always be someone there for you.

someone who cares for you. regardless of who you are and what you've done.

and, finally. never never never give up. no matter what.

LOL @ Godzilla ;P

he knows what i'm talking about.

Its the Silent Notes

Hey there.
This is my second blog today.
Gosh, i hope I'm not setting a pattern or something.
Not entirely sure why I'm writing another one.
But the truth is i like to write.
I may be shite at it, but I enjoy it.
For English this year we had to do a whole section on love from Romeo and Juliet. Then we had to rewrite the story in a modern setting. As i said before; I am shite at writing but i really like the beginning part of my story. True i never handed in the actual paper because i lost my mojo for finishing the story but that is besides the point.

Love isn’t always what it appears to be. Some believe it is simply
unattainable while others fall in and out of love as quickly as the moon changes
through its phases. Those who believe in the true power of love hold the belief
that one-day they will fall deeply and irrevocably in love. These are the ones
who hold the power in this society. It is a fickle thing; love is, occasionally
leaving as quickly as it came causing disbelief and bitter betrayal, but is kind
and generous to those who are of the kind hearted. They are the ones who stay in
love truly forever. They are of the miraculous kind.
Our tale lies here in a little city of a faraway place where a man and a woman, under the harshest of fates, fall in love truly, madly and deeply.

It is, simply, a story of love.

Yeah, you can laugh at it, its pretty bad and mushy but i like it :)


Gossip Girl: Jenny and Nate should be together. Blair (BITCH) and Chuck Bass should be together although Blair doesn't deserve him with his good looks..granted he is half of a rapist but hey who isn't when it comes to pretty girls?....me for one.

Music: dad showed me this z-o-m-g awesome punkish metal group with a very sexually interesting name >.< i love it haha. Shine Down and The Fray are particulary good too. As it Atreyu.

Right now: I have the Pocahuntas song playing in my head. You know the colours of the wind song?
It goes:

You think I'm an ignorant savage
And you've been so many places
I guess it must be so
But still I cannot see
If the savage one is me
How can there be so much that you don't know?
You don't know ...
...
Have you ever heard the wolf cry to the blue corn moon
Or asked the grinning bobcat why he grinned?
Can you sing with all the voices of the mountains?
Can you paint with all the colors of the wind?
Can you paint with all the colors of the wind?

But of course, i don't sing it because as ben so kindly pointed out that i cant sing and keeping the windows intact would be the wisest thing right now -.-

Ahah. I went though my old blog that i never posted and goddamn was i a agro girl. :O

Random tidbit: You spin my head right round right round when you go down when you go down down xD

Thats all for now i think perhaps.
Might be wise to stop blogging about in all honesty - fuck all.
LoL.

Anna x

Ich bau ne Stadt für dich

Right, well.

Its one week until i am done with St joes. One whole week. Of exams. Shit.

In the long run i guess it doesn't matter how much i hate the school because it did wat it was supposed to do which was to teach me things. I met new people, some of which i clashed with; others i didnt. I made good friends, trustworthy friends and other friends who just stayed in the background. I meet Brad through Jessie when he was in yr 7. I LOLed at his hair alot cos it was mad as so smile silly :P then a few years later I'm going out with him. Phunny.

Now I'm going to senior college. And that scares me cos I dont want to be alone or have no friends. Sure I'll have Iz but shes going to do her own thing sooner or later and make her own friends. Hopefully I'll find friends and we will all be together :)

I get to see brad still after school and on weekends so thats all I'm looking forward to right now about next year.

On a happier note: I'm getting credit for my phone today :O

I get to spend new years with Brad (:

Ich bau ne Stadt für dich

Aus Glas und Gold und Stein

Und jede Straße die hinausführt

Führt auch wieder rein

Ich bau eine Stadt für dich - und für mich

I'll build a city for you

Of glass and gold and stone

And every road leading out

Leads back in.

I'll build a city for you - and for me

Love this song (:

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LOL at these :P

Today,
my brother in-law was talking about an albino squirrel he had seen at work. My 6
year old daughter told me if she had seen it, she would have thought it was a
zombie, and hit it with a shovel. Glad to know she is prepared. MLIA

Today I was in the library when a huge football player looking guy ran in frantically looking for somewhere to hide. He was followed closely by a very small girl who tackled him to the ground, started rubbing her hands all over his head and screaming, "DONT EVER MESS UP MY HAIR AGAIN!!" Eventually the security guard stoped laughing long enough to pull her off. Easily made my week. MLIA

Today, I got suspended from school for two days. My referral reads, "Caught student in bathroom drawing intricate moustaches on the bathroom mirrors." I'm a seventeen year old girl. I hope the cheerleaders are pleasantly surprised when they go touch up their makeup. MLIA

Today, on the bus ride home from school, I yelled, "OH MY GOD THE SUN'S ON FIRE!" Everyone looked, including the bus driver. MLIA

Today, a girl in my math class exclaimed, "Whoa, it's HUGE!" My math teacher looked down said, "Awww, is my zipper undone again?" I couldn't stop laughing, especially after I saw the girl's red face. MLIA.

Today, I was on my way home from school when I saw one of my teachers on his motorcycle driving home. He had a black leather jacket, black boots, jeans, and a black tinted helmet to go with it. Then he had a rainbow dinosaur backpack. Respect GAINED. MLIA

Today, I found out there is a restaurant in New York called Ninja, where servers dressed as ninjas run around and steal forks and misplace things on your table. Also, there is a separate ninja entrance and the whole restaurant is recreated like you're eating in a ninja temple. Never have I been more jealous of people that live in New York than I am right now. MLIA.