Already Over

Feeling blah.
This song i'm listening to makes me feel so sad and like i don't belong. Hmph. Makes me think

I can't breathe here anymore

its been like that for a while

everything seems strange to me

I feel like a newborn child

and I know i dont belong down here

I guess it'll always the same

I wish i wouldnt have to fear

Under the water

under the water

oh you left me drowning

To start off with i'll talk about friends.

My best friend is Liz.

I don't hang out with the others much anymore and i dont think they've really noticed i'm gone. Sorta wish you know that they'd fight for me but thats just bullshit. i dont know half of them anyway. I miss who we used to be. Before germany was great fun, we'd go feral and have a ball at doing so but now, once i've come back from exchange its all changed. i've grown up, gotten sick of the dumb antics and just want some decent conversation. Thats why i hang out with Iz. She understands me, puts up with me and most of all she listens to everything i have to say without judging me. I don't regret losing that closeness i mightve had with them...gahh i sound so pathetic i hate it. I just wanna get this out of my head. Possibly the worst thing would be to put it on here but idfc. Their all wicked cool ppl just yeah i dont know.

I feel like crying.

All my posts are so depressive lol something might be wrong with me.

Be my friend, hold me, wrap me up, unfold me, i am small and needy, warm me up and breathe me

Well the ball is soon :) I can't wait!

Seeing everyone all dressed up and pretty.

"Hey there looking handsome tonight"

Went ball dress shopping today with Iz. she tried on a gazillion dresses and didnt find one that she liked but personally, there were a few that were simply stunning.

Ah

...Mum and dad are fighting again.

I hate this.

I know its already over now. Nothing left to lose, nothing you won't get.

I think I might go now.

Bye

Anna

To the world you may be just one person, but to someone you mean the world.