It's a dangerous Love Affair

So today i was thinking about things that really mean alot to me. More then anything else. Roughly three things do. The rest come after. Brad, Iz and Lilly pretty much sums up my life. My boyfriend, my best friend ever undoubtably have and my beautiful dog.
I woke up this morning which opened up to a horrible day.
My two baby chickens had drowned :( they were less then a week old. RIP Mr and Missy. You will be missed by your other siblings and mother, Lady.
Lilly is seriously sick. We don't know whats wrong with her and when we left she wanted to come with us. That has never happened. EVER. I'm so scared she's going to disapear from my life soon and there isnt a thing i can do to stop it. Shes been part of my life since i was two years old. We had lots of little secrets we did and it makes me smile to think of them.
When we drove to school mum and me, we had Minutes to Midnight cranked up loud and the right song came on to fit our mood. Shadow of the Day.
Mum said, "she had a good life, maybe its time we let her go"
I cried the whole trip to school.
When i think about it now I cry again.
Then when I got to school no one picked up that anything was wrong except for Iz so thank you, that means so much to me. I even got a hug from Brad who made sure I was ok. I understand how people get so distraught over their pets.
My day just steadily worse.
Brad went home cos he was sick. I hope he gets better :) love u
Everything went wrong. Had a fight with my dad over the tv.
I;ve figured out what i hate about my family. Sure theres lots of reasons but this one annoys the hell out of me.
We have to plan everything and research everything. To get the best quality for the best deal. Nothing is ever fucking spontaneous. We wanted a new tv that was big. Did it happen? No. Was it researched a shit load? YES IT FKN WAS.
When I wanted a bass guitar, did i get one before any research? NO. Did i end up getting one? NO. Why? Cos they wanted to see me research it to get the best one i could. Fuck that seriously.

I really can not wait to leave this school. Thank god I have a month or two tops. Everytime i see the people i cannot stand i am that little bit closer to hanging the noose.

I love my friends. Well tbh those ones who actually talk to me and care what i have to say...sure it might not make sense but still I am not retarded.

I'm getting kind of sick of people who assume I am unfaithful or being it. I am nothing more then friends with guys, thats all. I don't go around accusing others of cheating on their other half it they are good friends of the opposite sex. So don't go around saying that I'm flirting with boys or liking someone else when I am 100% happy with brad for those of you who don't like us together. What we do is our business btw. Not yours.













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What?






Is writing a blog just another way to gain attention?




Or is it a way to broadcast a point of view that you could not ordinarily express in life?













I think I might have had enough for today.

Good night.

Victory is within the mile almost there don't give up now.